Kundalini Rising, a Journey to an Awakening with UFOs, Paranormal and Phasing Consciousness.

Now due to some very interesting circumstances that had played out in my life over the last couple of years, I had come to the point that it felt right to share them publicly to help me try to understand better what It was that I had experienced.

Now there were many synchronicities leading up to my possible Kundalini experience that were in there own right pretty out there if you will, so I will try to as best as I can to add them in here to see if there was a connection.

I had been really following the truth movement or conspiracy theories and have been studying them really intensely, I guess in hindsight I was just beginning to undertake a journey of an awakening if you will. I had been driven by a strong desire to know what is really going on in the world in the hope I would find the answers to who am I? Why am I here?

I had found myself strongly drawn to the esoteric knowledge’s of the olden eras.

Deep inside I knew there was a purpose for me being here on mother Earth but it had been overshadowed by my own bad experiences earlier on in life and a strong sense of detachment from the world I lived in. Family and friends just didn't feel like they were who they were and never really settled into a fixed role in the working world, also a bad memory for dates and names, plus I just sensed I didn't belong or was totally out phase with time.

I had searched the Internet all over starting with YouTube and was troubled at what I was finding, there seemed to be some sort of darkness at play as I spent countless hours watching conspiracy videos, and delving deeper into the different esoteric concepts of our spiritual origins. The first part of this journey of knowledge is packed full of fearful ideologies with dark agendas and one I guess was a necessary evil, as darkness does truly exit and I had learned much from the detailed observations and experiences of others.

It was along this part of my journey something really strange had occurred, something I still today haven’t found anywhere on the net (Internet), of it happening to someone else. I had been watching a really fantastic video of an interview with Bob Dean and Kerry Cassidy on Project Camelot Portal.

Where Bob had been talking about what was known as the Ararat Anomaly, this Anomaly was picked up by a Spy Satellite ,and it turned out to be some type of Ark (boat) that was some 15000 foot up on the side of Mount Ararat just like in the biblical story of Noah.

Well at the same time I had just started writing online at Hubpages.com and was a complete novice, I still don’t know why I began writing because well it was totally out of character for me, plus I couldn't spell to save my life and had only ever read two books in my life up until then but, I had been posting links to my blogs constantly for hours at sites such as Digg, Stumble, Twitter etc.

Well again I had gotten frustrated with this whole process and couldn't work out how or why I never really had gained much traffic back to my blogs as most of the others on these sites seemed to be good at. So in a moment of insanity or foolishness I had changed the opening header or title of my link’s to NSA Spy Satellite finds Noah’s Ark, well something to that effect to see if that would increase my traffic to my blog, but never really thought much of it after.

As synchronicity or fate had it, I had also around the same time been working as a labourer for an employer who turned out to be a Mason. At first I was so happy to be working and thought he was a great guy and also considered becoming a Mason as well, but then he turned out to be a bit of a ‘Jekyll & Hyde’ type of character who was very abusive and intimidating.

Then one day after he had decided he had made me feel like real crap a strange event occurred, while talking to me he had noticed something change in my right eye and his reaction puzzled me even to this day. Well the next day a friend or colleague of his came into the office and after a short time they walked over to me all smiles and asked me some random questions, but all the while they were fixed on my right eye and soon after they walked away all smug as if they thought I was stupid and didn't notice, well I did!

Well from that moment on I intuitively knew I couldn't trust him but stuck in a dilemma to keep a wage he would continue to play nice guy and bad guy, then other strange tests or manipulating began and it was like he was trying to probe my mind.

I could see his face in my mind just staring back at me but permanently fixed in my mind, like a psychic connection, and even one day a strong sense of a very low energy had come over me as I remembered it so vividly because I uttered the words out as it was happening.

Well I soon left that job and found myself out of work for some time, it was later in this period I had joined Hubpages and began writing and also found I was compelled to find the truth of who I am and why I am here.

I had learned so much in this dark part of my journey from the great information gathered by like minded people looking for the truth and I have to thank people like Kerry Cassidy from Project Camelot Portal also George Kavassilas from Our Journey Home.com and other great historian researchers like Jordon Maxwell and so many more others.

It was around this time something so outrageous had happened and this is where it gets complicated so to speak.

Well as I had mentioned earlier I began to get very frustrated with the process of posting links back to my blogs and had posted some links with the title concerning the Ararat Anomaly. Well, some days later or maybe a week, I was having a cigarette in the garden and had relaxed my back against the wall with my right foot resting also on the wall just staring up into the night sky facing east.

Then in the blackness of the sky a great white flash had occurred like an intense camera flash, and within seconds a white laser light had illuminated over my right eye for what seemed only a second or two then disappeared.

For some reason I didn't even flinch I just stared straight into it and it was a very intense brightness, straight away and afterwards I could feel my whole head was buzzing like it was irradiated or something and this sensation had lasted over an hour.

Intuitively I didn't feel any fear but I kind of suspected it was a satellite that just took an image of my right eye or something. I had told my partner who I had stayed that night and well she knew I wasn't lying but couldn't fathom what was going on and just gave that concerning look.

As she had also noticed strange things around the house as well, like dark orbs passing in the peripheral and even heard a voice call her name out up stairs as I was down stairs and other strange things too.

Well after that experience maybe a week later, I had just carried on as usual and was just about to take on a course to get my C.S.C.S card to work in construction. When another similar incident occurred in the garden and believe it or not in the very exact place as I was smoking a cigarette again.

An aircraft flying in from the east had caught my attention for some reason so I kept eyes on it, when again another white laser light had done the exact same thing as the last, it had focused on my right eye and lasted only about a second or two.

Now I was beginning to wonder what the hell is going on, what are the chances of this happening twice are and when I was just having a cigarette again?

Strange but true I had told those close to me about what had happened and I could tell they thought I was crazy, but it really did happen and was the truth so I had no problem saying it again and again because I certainly know this was all real.

Then soon after maybe a week or two but just cant be certain some bad synchronicities began to play out, first it started out money didn't go into the bank when it should have. That had caused a severe problem as we were strapped for cash enough and arguing and anxiety had kicked in.

Well in the end we had to porn my laptop over in Hayes at cash converters, having to jump the fare for the train and the added worry of what if they don’t take the laptop do we have enough ID etc.

Well any family person knows that those situation can make you feel so inadequate and it had beaten us up all morning with worry, so when they had finally given us cash for it a great sense of relief had hit us and we calmed down the best way a smoker knows how, but was totally worn out from it all, just felt so depleted.

Then we began to slowly walk back towards the station not uttering a word when the most amazing experience had occurred in front of my eyes. Just ten yards from cash converters I had noticed a tall lady turn the corner some 30 yards ahead of me, walking towards us.

I had an overwhelming connection straight away, my eyes never left her as she walked towards us and she was obviously very tall well over 6 foot, I could even say maybe 7 foot but not sure.

She was dressed smart in a greyish type female suit but with a skirt down to her knees, her posture was straight and proud, she had a very feminine but strong presence about her, I had noticed her legs where very muscular, athletic but perfect.

As she neared closer never changing her line of sight or looking around all I could feel myself saying is she is beautiful. She had very short blond hair and her eyes were just beautiful, they where big blue eyes but like she was wearing very strong eye contacts or something.

Her skin was so clear not an ounce of fat or a blemish and she looked very feminine with a smallish face and a very small and straight nose, nothing like I had seen before, just beautifully proportioned.

Then as we reached the moment of crossing I found myself just staring into her face like an internal knowing that she wasn't human but almost like I had a very strong connection to her. But to my amazement I switched in my mind like a bitter voice took over and loudly said in my thoughts "You look like a man".

Strange as it happens after that event I didn't believe I really said that, almost like someone else had timed it and spoke through my mind, very strange.

Well at the end of the day I sat there contemplating everything that has now been on my intuition radar, I remember on ‘YouTube’ I think some weeks before that encounter. There was an image of an Annunaki Female going about and I do remember posting a comment saying she is beautiful.

To my amazement that actual photo less the red eyes was exactly like her, same identical features of her face believe me, unmistakable. I reflect back to that time often and I know without doubt who she really was and I know without doubt she knew that I knew and that was from the very moment she turned that corner, amazing.

Well soon after that experience things were kind of the same just trying to get by and make it through the week, when another weird encounter had happened during my CSCS course.

A middle age man had sat next to me trying to make conversation or maybe get my attention, I hadn't seen him there before but I was to troubled worrying over money issues and had been staring at this computer monitor for far too bloody long, just going over a mock test and righting down my scores.

So I wasn't really on the ball as such and he starts talking about conspiracy theories and leading the conversation. I kind of was having a conversation with him but was falling back into a bored type of trance at the monitor, then after about 10 minutes he said he was going to have a coffee and went to the cafeteria just around the corner in the same building.

Well two minutes after I decided I had enough and went for a coffee too, as I turned the corner I had noticed him sitting there in deep thought, contemplating over something. When he saw me he looked amazed and said, “oh you going to have a coffee too” well we got talking and I had said I had been to Afghanistan on service and we cover a little general chat.

Then he began to say something strange as if he was trying to let me know something, he said he has a friend who works for the R.A.F that is on some quick notice call out, he gets a call and has to be ready to fly out somewhere, I can’t recall exactly what the call out time is but anyway.

Along this conversation he had given me a look to see if I have registered what he was saying but I was so down worrying about money and my problems that I had just replied “sounds really exciting”.

He looked puzzled as he was in hindsight obviously trying to figure me out and it seemed again obvious to me after when I finally sat down at the end of the day and contemplated my day’s events.

That he was either MI5 or maybe a concerned Mason and it dawned on me that there was also an Air force base so many miles east of that garden too, again I can only guess, well I was pleasant and said goodbye and decided I had enough for one day.

Well as I continued with this course I could sense that those running the course had a suspicious look in their eyes after that day, but I just finished the course and moved on.

Shortly after that maybe a week or so housing benefit visits my partner’s house and starts to enquire about me, who am I? Who is my doctor etc?

Well whoever they were they watched that house parked out front, I had to limit seeing her for a while and they put their pressure on real good. By this time I had enough of this Draconian style of manipulation and was now on the edge, so we drove past one car with a male trying to hide his face, but I had gave such a deep look straight at him that he looked around and we made eye contact really quickly.

he knew me alright, it was in his evil eyes you can see the bitterness and hatred in those windows to the soul.

Well this crap continued for about a month and then by some miracle it just seemed to go away. Today I realised just how despicable these people are, I was being treated like a terrorist or worse and it didn't make a dam difference I was a patriot either.

Well time moved on and all we wanted to do was get out of this dam ‘hell hole’ of an area that has brought us nothing but bad luck.

So we really struggled for some time and were hanging on just by a thread waiting for a bit of luck to get us out of here, but it would be some time still.

Well strange things continued in their own little way, I would sit in the garden just staring into the day sky when having a smoke and would be amazed at seeing silver metallic orbs stationary and high in sky, sometimes the Sun would reflect off them giving them a real silver glow like shiny metal.

Then they would seem to go slightly higher just disappearing into the blueness of the sky and then reappear, some days there were one and some days more but I could always spot them. Then some days they would just glide on by and on a few occasions I could see another type totally different then the others.

It would appear to have an orange to red colour that seemed to be spinning around or pulsating, but this type seemed to be lower in altitude. Instinctively I never resonated with this type, not sure why just a knowing of some sort that there energy seemed heavy or kind of dark.

I was always amazed that people never really gave it much thought to what was happening above their heads, and never really evaluated what they were seeing. We are so conditioned to dismiss such things but here they are staring back at you and well, people still say “UFO? No, got to be a balloon or something.”

Well I guess the truth of it has always been there but only when you are ready do you really begin to see.

Well deep inside I could feel I was on some spiritual journey of some kind, like an awakening but at the same time was really suffering in the material world. Constantly struggling to get by, things just didn't seem to be getting any better just ground hog day, day after day.

Well I had walked to the shops one day and the Sun was beaming in a clear blue sky, as I glanced up to look at it I could see a gigantic dark grey metallic something just to the right of it. At first I thought it was some kind of odd looking balloon, but it was so big, and looked like it had some vertical metallic rib shaped pattern that looked evenly spaced all around it but all joined together.

But the strangest part I could only see half of it as the other half of it seemed to be out of the atmosphere, like some days you can see the moon in the daytime and only see part of it as the blue sky seems to cover the rest of it.

Well I couldn't believe my eyes but then consciously I began to feel uncomfortable, like I was some sort of nutcase just standing in the street and just staring up at the sky, as if people were looking at me, so I just chuckled to myself and went on to the shops.

I continued to see them, well the smaller ones all the time and it was becoming my favourite past time. I was always amazed at what I was experiencing and I had again told those that I knew about them and well they would laugh, it seemed for a long while I was on my own with these experiences.

But when things really happen to you or should say in front of you and you know you are being truthful, you can feel very comfortable just saying it again and again because it is the truth.

This one still puzzles me up to this day? We were sitting down one evening on the sofa just watching the television just chilling out, and from my left an intense light had passed by very quickly, a very intense light of blue and white like the size of a small ball or opened hand.

Its colour was out of this world and it seemed almost like two L.E.D lights but of vibrancy I have never seen before. Well I was not alone with this one thank God because it had jetted passed me and seemed to reflect or go through my partners glasses, well she jumped back amazed and dazzled and said what the bloody hell was that? It felt like it passed through her right eye or right eye glass.

It seemed to disappear into the wall to our right, it all happened in under a couple of seconds but its energy seemed alive so speak, I could sense an intelligence but just couldn't understand it more than just what we had experienced because it was just beyond my understanding.

Being one to not jump to those conclusions straight away I had jumped up excitedly to fathom what had happened, my partner obviously seeing it herself had just kept a distance from my excitement like she really didn't want to know what was happening or should say had happened.

So I had gone into a bit of a detective type of role and proceeded to slowly analyze step by step, what normal occurrence could have caused it?

Well all the curtains were shut so a possible outside reflection didn't fit, was it the garden door window maybe the neighbours kid was shining a laser pen of some sort through it? No because that curtain was fully covering the glass plain plus it was the heavy duty type too.

Or was it some freak reflection from the L.E.D lights off the Freeview box under the television, so I considered the possibilities?

Maybe my partners glasses had some how reflected a concentration or beam from them and somehow created what we had seen. It didn't seemed likely but I took her glasses off her and went up to the L.E.D lights and slowly moved here glasses at angles to the light to see if I could simulate some sort of reflection, but nothing?

At this point I had no other answer so I just sat back down and just resonated over the experience, my partner obviously a little freaked just dealt with it the best way she always does, by putting it to the back of her mind and continued to watch the television.

Our time living here in this area was always a struggle and our luck never seemed to improve, rather like a curse of sorts but anxiety and stress of another ill moment of financial trouble had been sent to the door. I had thought desperately who I could lend some money from to give us a temporally fix to this problem, I ask my brother but he obviously wasn't interested and made another excuse.

My options were limited to none, my family apart from my brother had financial problems of their own and well this never ending period of bad luck had wiped me clean from any possessions worth anything, even my service medals had been swallowed up by this misfortune.

The only other person that kept popping into my head was that employer that treated me like crap, and it was hurting me deep inside to even think of asking him, as I had swallowed my pride so many times before going through this bad period but this one was really bothering me!

Well after much thought I had no other choice but to see if he could lend me some money and he did offer so I was grateful. I didn't feel very comfortable when I turned up because I could feel him and his son looking me up and down as if smug to say look whose back or maybe I was just thinking that myself.

Over the next few weeks I continued to payback and then borrow until one day he gives me a call to offer me some work painting a machinery part, I jumped at the chance to make some money so it started all good from there.

I often wondered why fate had brought me back here and well I have been wondering what my fate was trying to tell me all this time but I guess the lessons were still playing out.

I had finished the painting job and everyone was pleased, I was a good worker never late always at least 15 minutes early and worked through breaks when busy and never really moaned or slacked always tried hard and my employer knew this.

Then one day I had gone to get a drink of water from the tap and my employer was just standing around maybe four metres ahead of me, with his back turned slightly at me.

When I heard clearly in my mind, in my thoughts a question from him, “do you still want to be a Mason?”

It was clear to me so I looked at him just like you would if someone asked you a direct question, but obviously this had happened with no words being said if you know what I mean.

To my amazement as I looked to him, he gave a deep thinking glance back and we shared a moment of silence but a shared reality that I had heard it loud and clear. Now if it wasn't for his subtle but recognisable reaction immediately after that profound realisation which I had become familiar with, like when he would have the truth dawn on him lets say for example? He would always rub his hand up and down on his chest while having a little chuckle to himself as he walked away.

For me, that was the indicator I only needed to see and, as always it would dawn on me at the end of the day, as I would go over my days events. Telepathy is real and I knew it for sure that day and there was no mistaking it, no way!

I had thought long and hard over all my strange experiences that had been accumulating over this difficult period and really was trying to understand what fate was trying to tell me, I was desperate to know why so I could make sense of it all, like the saying goes ‘everything happens for a reason’.

So I thought it through and came to a conclusion that maybe becoming a Mason was what it was all about? So the next day when at work I would ask my employer “I would like to be a Mason” he gave a nodding look of approval and seemed quite happy, he would explain who they were and what it meant to be a Mason.

Some of the most successful people in the world were or are Masons and they all worked with a high morality code and respectively would strive to up hold them. In other words it would make me a better person and I guessed to myself maybe I could find out the answers to my spiritual questions of who am I or why I am here etc.

Well time moved on and after a little while after asking another Mason that knew me I was just about to go to an appointed date, I believe it was a Monday that should have got the ball rolling so to speak. I was quite excited it seemed I was now beginning a possible quest and finally something good was going to happen in my life, you know restore some self worth and improve the life of myself and my family, but then?

I turned up on the Friday excited because it was the end of the week and It was wages day too so I was in good spirits. I remember asking his son do you know where I could buy a suit and tie around here for cheap? Because I thought to myself I wanted to look smart for my appointment on Monday, we surmised but nothing relevant seemed to pop up in our conversation so we just all continued to do are work.

Well the last hour of the day arrives and we are working hard on a vehicle, me and another worker. The boss’s son has popped out and now the employer is putting a bit of pressure on us, but he really goes to town on us for no apparent reason, just being very complicated and intimidating firing orders at us that were just impossible to keep up with.

He is turning very aggressive keeping us under pressure like a savage platoon sergeant that is trying to break his recruits. Well, we are sprinting back and forth getting this tool and that tool, sprinting here, jump up there! Grab hold of this! Until an accident nearly occurred as a ratchet spins widely out of control in the air because we couldn't hold the tension on this bit of a machinery part.

Well, he is giving us so much abuse and creating such a crap situation I dropped down the metal bar with the hump! Well in hindsight this is what he was waiting for, from the split second it hit the floor he exploded into a crazed animal and the abuse was so fierce so outrageous he was like a man possessed.

Well, I had this once before from him I thought when I worked here previously, but not as bad as this and thank God I would not feel any fear. I continued to do my job until it was time to go, now most people would of left right then or would have lost it completely on the spot, but I always trust my intuition and from that I knew very well the kind of tactics that he was using and kept a lid on it till the end.

Well five minutes later the employer is standing just five foot away from us but the poor lad who was working with me could not contain his words. As he uttered repeatedly over and over again, “There is no need for that, just no need for that, it’s wrong, just wrong!”

He was shocked real bad and trembling, just constantly nodding his head side to side like saying no constantly to yourself, well you could have cut the atmosphere with a knife at that moment, so after fifteen minutes had passed away it was now time to pack up and wash up.

The employer was in his office ranting a load of crap to his son about me, who by the way miraculously appeared in under five minutes with a friend beforehand. I collected my stuff and proceeded to the office to collect my wages, well as if by clever arrangement he had his friend wait on the outside of the door to the office, while his son stayed inside the office with him, almost as if they were acting like protectors.

Well, I walked into that office and looked him squarely in the eyes and said, “Thank you for the work but I will not be coming back again.” He looking smug, but bloody nervous underneath and said “dam right you won’t, you never argue with the boss.” So I just gave a proud look and smiled at him because now I really knew how much of wan*** you really are.

Due to holding firm and listening to my intuition and not reacting as he was wanting, I had came out the better man. He couldn't really fault me I never said a word, I held true and firm under his callous attempt to break me, I didn't even feel an ounce of fear, and I began to see through him and his sickening plot.

He even shorted me £50 out of my wages and taken it from me and that’s taking it from my family, also he just sabotaged my appointment to become a Mason, but I had learned and seen for myself a great lesson of the ages.

I shall never give my power away and always stay sovereign to my spiritual light inside me, too bad for him? As for what I really saw happening in him was the tentacles of Saturn working through him, oh poor you.

I found myself at this point back where I started but something deep inside of me had gained ground, my hunger for spiritual enlightenment had driven on harder. I found myself seeing a synchronicity to what I was finding and learning, even basic observations were stopping me in my tracks like an inner knowing teaching me.

I would randomly notice symbolic clues that would lead me to another area of learning and researching, yes it was in the realm of the conspiracy theory mostly but to me that is a dirty word. Someone who is driven to find the truth is a truth seeker and if that was backed by a spiritual drive, I would class it as a personal awakening now how can you be a conspirator?

I had been seeing many symbols like pentagrams and hexagrams and numerology cleverly interwoven into everyday things like company logos, architecture and mainstream media and films. They were everywhere hidden in plain sight for all to see, I followed the trail of the meaning and symbolic use for the hexagram. Well it is a six pointed star too I had found a very prominent esoteric association with the hexagram and the planet Saturn.

The planet Saturn turns out to have a fascinating weather phenomenon that is constantly shaped at its northern pole, its shape is a perfect hexagram, unbelievable really but that is what it is. On its southern point the weather shape is likened to that of an eye, just remarkable, it’s funny to note that NASA had sent a probe to Saturn only in the last decade or so and captured images of this phenomenon, these images can be found by just using Google.

I often wondered why Saturn has been heavily used in everyday things just sitting in the background of a TV programme to even the majority of adverts; I mean why not just show a seven pointed star or other planets, but Saturn is the one of dominance.

Its numerical value is 666 and if you place a six pointed star inside a hexagram you can numerically have? A 6 pointed star, 6 sides to the hexagram also 6 triangles and funny enough Saturn is the 6^th planet from the Sun, very interesting I thought.

So thanks to a link via Jordon Maxwell’s website and the beautiful messages from George Kavassilas, I had now undertaken a keen look into the esoteric learning’s of Astrotheology and its beautiful concepts of our spiritual connections and influences to the star our Sun and planets and their luminaries.

• It would appear but quickly and poetically: From the source of the creator an aspect of our souls had travelled down through the many dimensions to the great mother, the Milky Way Galaxy. As we travelled down what some say is the serpent rope or umbilical cord that connects through the spiral arms of her, we proceeded until we reached our great star, Father Sun of our Solar System who gives the light thus energy of life to all seeds.

• From there we continued until we reached our beautiful Mother Earth who carries all of us in her whom and nurtures us all, as we drink from her and eat from her and breath her air, so we may experience this divine game of duality.

Unconditional love our spiritual Father Sun and Mother Earth have for their creation and so as by fate we would have the influences of our nearby planets and luminary to test us in a dualistic manner, as to facilitate and cover every type of experience we could imagine.

• Planet Mercury, he who bestows intellect and all things of great minds, and as a dualistic aspect, to be lost in his realm and cut off from our spiritual mother and father would be likened to those great thinkers enslaved by their own design even driven mad by it. Just like its chemical counterpart would drive the mind completely mad by it’s over accumulation or total fixation of it.

• Planet Venus, the goddess of lust, the seductress, how she influences the sexual desires and all things like vanity. Dualistically to be lost in her lustful embrace would only pull you further from your grace and all knowing as nothing can compare to the unconditional love of our dear Mother Earth and Father Sun, for it is within this love that all things will be nurtured and grow.

• Lunar, our own luminary the moon as it orbits around our beautiful Mother Earth, how it can call the tides to flow and sway, how its reflective light mesmerizes the eyes and pulls at us with its gravity. How its own cycle around our Mother Earth matches the cycles of menstruation and inflicts a temporary madness on the mind. As its name proclaims? Lunar also known as lunatic.

• Planet Mars, the god of war! He who is determined and fearless, and decisive in action, but in a dualistic manner? His attributes have no boundaries as if by way of separation from our divine heart, he who has no compassion in his heart even for ones enemy. Can find themselves consumed by this fearlessness, a taste for blood thirsting and fighting, as one now becomes separated from there own inner light and growth thus peace.

• Planet Jupiter, the largest planet in our solar system, who over the ages has been associated with many names through mythology. I like to think of Jupiter as a female warrior, with traits of compassion mixed in with bravery, and spiritual awareness. For she is a guardian and protector, for her great mass has a gigantic gravitational pull, that will pull any wondering asteroid or space object that passes into her domain. In her compassion and bravery she protects us from any would be threat and eliminates them.

• Planet Saturn, he who rules the material plain and is the judge and executioner, also associated with the sixth chakra or the third eye. Old Saturn he of death and Law, the giver and the taker, the grim reaper who’s colour is black. Just as seen within the practises of Law, how a Judge in court sits high and mighty above all. So conditional is his affections extreme and polarized and dualistic in its nature. In one hand he on condition can give you light and on the other bring you darkness and death.

Oh how we the eternal souls of the creator, and did so bravely volunteer to partake in this game of duality and agree to have no memory of who we are, as we have been tested to such a high degree in darkness and in light.

Maybe to gain such a compressed amount of knowledge, life time after life time or maybe we have been sent into the darkness with no memory and with ever growing hurdles put in our path. To see if we would against all the odds find our way back to the truth and the light of the only Creator.

Well, whatever the truth of it is? We are all truly connected ‘as above so bellow’ from the macrocosm to the microcosm, everything is energy and light, and how all things have consciousness and a spirit. It is our free will to be in harmony with our inner truth as it is also our right under free will to be not.

Well at some point through the expanse of time, we all find our way back to the truth and everyone will have there own journey too.

It was shortly after maybe some months later that I had noticed a strange difference occurring when I was looking at things, when I was alone in the garden just observing and smoking a cigarette.

I had noticed that there was a phasing of some sort happening as I looked at random objects, like it was moving or even like it was breathing somehow? I had noticed how the wooden fence when just observing from a relaxed, almost detached view. Had appeared to be expanding and then contracting, and the more I just relaxed and observed, the more in tuned I felt with it, like creation or Mother Earth was breathing or contracting and expanding.

I allowed myself to just flow with it and the more I remembered that feeling and that relaxed state of consciousness, the more I could notice it in other objects too. It felt and looked as If I could tap into its frequency and see it vibrating like light dancing very quickly, to me it was really cool to look at.

As time went on I could in seconds tap into that state of mind again and see the vibrating and phasing going on, and had noticed how the wood resonated and moved more in tune than, when I looked at the metallic clothes horse, that would just vibrate so erratic and so quickly.

I remembered saying to myself over and over as this was happening the same words? “My reality is changing” but I felt so in tuned with it and just went with it every time. I was obviously reaching some hypnotic state or something, but it felt more than that to me more like I was becoming more consciously aware.

Well, shortly afterwards my partner went for a short break with her family on holidays and I was all by myself for a week. In this time something so remarkable had happened that I really couldn't tell you what it was that had happened, I mean was it a Kundalini activation of some sorts? Well whatever it was it was the most amazing experience I ever had, wow it blew me away.

Some days had passed since and during this time I would frequently chill out in the garden just observing and being peaceful. The house was empty and there was no distractions like there would normally be in a family home, so I found myself spending longer in that relaxed state of consciousness and really flowing with it.

As I reached that state of phasing just by observing the garden fences or the grass, I had noticed again a familiar movement, the expanding and contracting like my reality was breathing so I just went with it.

I had noticed by flowing with it my own breathing was out of sync with it so I had now begun to breath with it, just like I was trying to keep a rhythm going but in total synchronicity . I couldn't tell you how long I did this for because I really couldn't say exactly but what happened next was just unbelievable.

Without a conscious thought for what I was doing I was feeling an activation of energy from within or around my heart centre. It was just a warming of sorts at first but felt kind of euphoric like energy was controlling my breathing and it felt so good. I had felt it grow stronger and now had a radiated feeling of just an incredible amount of energy building up, all the while all I could hear was myself breathing with it, from normal breaths this growing energy had now got me breathing so deeply but kind of shallow and slowly but so meaningfully.

My stomach at this moment is feeling this energy but different, like the feeling of nervousness but without any fear, just like a very warm and euphoric butterflies of sorts. But it’s my heart centre that is so energised and my breathing is so connected.

Now at this point I am really feeling so good but this energy is getting intense and I go back into the house. As I am walking around the living room my chest is expanding and contracting so meaningfully with this intense energy, all I have focus on is how powerful my breathing feels, it really is hard to describe, it’s like it is so alive.

I walked around slowly just absorbed in this unbelievable radiance that is going on inside of me, and then I go back into the garden. All I remember saying to myself is “wow, my reality is changing” as I go to sit down on the garden chair.

I don’t feel any fear or anxiousness just feel so alive, I mean so alive it’s so intense then I remember so vividly this particular thought kept coming to the front of my mind, “it’s a quickening, this is the quickening” and my mind is seeing a scene from the film Highlander.

Where the actor Sean Connery, and the other main character are both having some spiritual or profound connection with a wild Stag (deer). As they are seen to have tapped into its essence and by doing so they can feel its heart beat beating and they are synchronised with its breathing.

As it breaths they are breathing as one with it and as they do this they are beginning to feel some sort of amazing surge of energy, and then they are seen running off all on a high from this mysterious source of energy that Sean Connery calls the ‘Quickening’.

Well, this continued for some hours and during that time I had just continued to walk around the house just absorbed in this radiance, my mind is clear and my awareness seemed so expanded but I guess in hind sight, I just didn't know what to do with it.

I mean? I just didn't know what was happening but was not concerned at all, just went with it all the way, at one point I was sitting in the bed room just blankly staring at the wall, absorbed in the energy of my breathing.

In my minds eye I was talking to a female who looked like she was from the Victorian age? It seemed so natural at the time although saying it now via this article it does sound really strange, I guess I was in some type of hypnagogic state or something, very surreal experience and one that can be difficult to try and explain, well people would think you are insane wouldn't they.

Well you don’t know how fitting that scene from the movie Highlander was for me right then and their, because trying to explain that intense energy would have been nearly impossible for me to describe, as I have never felt so alive as I did with that experience, it was just so intense so hard to explain.

Well, some months had passed since that amazing experience and we finally moved back closer to friends and family. I haven’t had that experience again but I do hear on occasion’s intense tones or frequencies and an inner knowing, that this is only the beginning and I feel we are heading into a great change on the horizon and a very positive one.

I still believe there is a determinism aspect to my events, like a plan or fated journey to something more profound, why we have such experiences begs me to believe that they are for a reason, a grand plan.

The profound heart area activation that I had experienced and the way in which I had gotten there, through the concept of phasing consciousness which I still experience as an everyday occurrence, by will or not.

Seriously needs some more study and recognition for its grand potential for spiritual development and consciousness awareness. The technique that I have used is very simple to follow, and the profound connection is with ones breathing, but not the types of deep inhalation as some people do in meditation.

It is so very subtle and without any effort. Just is a focus of gentle inhalation and exhalation, with your concentration on your heart centre, whilst connecting to the phasing of natural objects, like the wooden fence, the grass, or a tree.

Think of the breathing we do when sleeping, minimal effort, just deeply relaxed and natural.

My wish is that others could feel such an experience as it will be so profound in there lives, plus there is so much more to learn from this beautiful brilliance of energy inside us all.

So in finishing me the author would just like to say good luck to you all and best wishes to each and every one of you on your journeys, never give up on hope and always trust in your inner knowing take care and all the best, Mark Bennis.